August 12, 2019
I wrote this on August 12, 2019. We had been at the hospital with Sarah and knew we were going home the next day. We were glad to be out of the hospital, but also dreading going home to a house without Ella and Aranza.
The next few days will be some of the hardest yet. Today we will face our empty house, our home filled with memories, belongings and reminders at every corner that Ella and Aranza are no longer with us.
Sarah has to adjust to being an only child, to sleeping in a room that used to be filled with whispers and giggles.
We have to plan and endure the final goodbyes, making decisions that no parent ever thinks they will have to make, and prays will never happen.
We know you all have prayed many prayers for us, and we covet your prayers today specifically over these things.